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Title: Lady Hester or, Ursula's Narrative

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LADY HESTER;

OR,

URSULA'S NARRATIVE.




CONTENTS.

CHAPTER I.     SAULT ST. PIERRE

CHAPTER II.    TREVORSHAM

CHAPTER III.   THE PEERAGE CASE

CHAPTER IV.    SKIMPING'S FARM

CHAPTER V.     SPINNEY LAWN

CHAPTER VI.    THE WHITE DOE'S WARNING

CHAPTER VII.   HUNTING

CHAPTER VIII.  DUCK SHOOTING

CHAPTER IX.    TREVOR'S LEGACY





CHAPTER I.  SAULT ST. PIERRE.



I write this by desire of my brothers and sisters, that if any
reports of our strange family history should come down to after
generations the thing may be properly understood.

The old times at Trevorsham seem to me so remote, that I can hardly
believe that we are the same who were so happy then.  Nay, Jaquetta
laughs, and declares that it is not possible to be happier than we
have been since, and Fulk would have me remember that all was not
always smooth even in those days.

Perhaps not--for him, at least, dear fellow, in those latter times;
but when I think of the old home, the worst troubles that rise before
me are those of the back-board and the stocks, French in the school-
room, and Miss Simmonds' "Lady Ursula, think of your position!"

And as to Jaquetta, she was born under a more benignant star.  Nobody
could have put a back-board on her any more than on a kitten.

Our mother had died (oh! how happily for herself!) when Jaquetta was
a baby, and Miss Simmonds most carefully ruled not only over us, but
over Adela Brainerd, my father's ward, who was brought up with us
because she had no other relation in the world.

Besides, my father wished her to marry one of my brothers.  It would
have done very well for either Torwood or Bertram, but unluckily, as
it seemed, neither of them could take to the notion.  She was a dear
little thing, to be sure, and we were all very fond of her; but, as
Bertram said, it would have been like marrying Jaquetta, and Torwood
had other views, to which my father would not then listen.

Then Bertram's regiment was ordered to Canada, and that was the real
cause of it all, though we did not know it till long after.

Bertram was starting out on a sporting expedition with a Canadian
gentleman, when about ten miles from Montreal they halted at a farm
with a good well-built house, named Sault St. Pierre, all looking
prosperous and comfortable, and a young farmer, American in his ways-
-free-spoken, familiar, and blunt--but very kindly and friendly, was
at work there with some French-Canadian labourers.

Bertram's friend knew him and often halted there on hunting
expeditions, so they went into the house--very nicely furnished, a
pretty parlour with muslin curtains, a piano, and everything
pleasant; and Joel Lea called his wife, a handsome, fair young woman.
Bertram says from the first she put him in mind of some one, and he
was trying to make out who it could be.  Then came the wife's mother,
a neat little delicate, bent woman, with dark eyes, that looked,
Bertram said, as if they had had some great fright and never
recovered it.  They called her Mrs. Dayman.

She was silent at first, and only helped her daughter and the maid to
get the dinner, and an excellent dinner it was; but she kept on
looking at Bertram, and she quite started when she heard him called
Mr. Trevor.  When they were just rising up, and going to take leave,
she came up to him in a frightened agitated manner, as if she could
not help it, and said--

"Sir, you are so like a gentleman I once knew.  Was any relation of
yours ever in Canada?"

"My father was in Canada," answered Bertram.

"Oh no," she said then, very much affected, "the Captain Trevor I
knew was killed in the Lake Campaign in 1814.  It must be a mistake,
yet you put me in mind of him so strangely."

Then Bertram protested that she must mean my father, for that he had
been a captain in the --th, and had been stationed at York (as
Toronto was then called), but was badly wounded in repulsing the
American attack on the Lakes in 1814.

"Not dead?" she asked, with her cheeks getting pale, and a sort of
excitement about her, that made Bertram wonder, at the moment, if
there could have been any old attachment between them, and he
explained how my father was shipped off from England between life and
death; and how, when he recovered, he found his uncle dying, and the
title and property coming to him.

"And he married!" she said, with a bewildered look; and Bertram told
her that he had married Lady Mary Lupton--as his uncle and father had
wished--and how we four were their children.  I can fancy how kindly
and tenderly Bertram would speak when he saw that she was anxious and
pained; and she took hold of his hand and held him, and when he said
something of mentioning that he had seen her, she cried out with a
sort of terror, "Oh no, no, Mr. Trevor, I beg you will not.  Let him
think me dead, as I thought him.  And then she drew down Bertram's
tall head to her, and fairly kissed his forehead, adding, "I could
not help it, sir; an old woman's kiss will do you no harm!"

Then he went away.  He never did tell us of the meeting till long
after.  He was not a great letter writer, and, besides, he thought my
father might not wish to have the flirtations of his youth brought up
against him.  So we little knew!

But it seems that the daughter and son-in-law were just as much
amazed as Bertram, and when he was gone, and the poor old lady sank
into her chair and burst out crying, and as they came and asked who
or what this was, she sobbed out, "Your brother Hester!  Oh! so like
him--my husband!" or something to that effect, as unawares.  She
wanted to take it back again, but of course Hester would not let her,
and made her tell the whole.

It seems that her name was Faith Le Blanc; she was half English, half
French-Canadian, and lived in a village in a very unsettled part,
where Captain Trevor used to come to hunt, and where he made love to
her, and ended by marrying her--with the knowledge of her family and
his brother officers, but not of his family--just before he was
ordered to the Lake frontier.  The war had stirred up the Indians to
acts of violence they had not committed for many years, and a tribe
of them came down on the village, plundering, burning, killing, and
torturing those whom they had known in friendly intercourse.

Faith Le Blanc had once given some milk to a papoose upon its
mother's back, and perhaps for this reason she was spared, but
everyone belonging to her was, she believed, destroyed, and she was
carried away by the tribe, who wanted to make her one of themselves;
and she knew that if she offended them, such horrors as she had seen
practised on others would come on her.

However, they had gone to another resort of theirs, where there was a
young hunter who often visited them, and was on friendly terms.  When
he found that there was a white woman living as a captive among them,
he spared no effort to rescue her.  Both he and she were often in
exceeding danger; but he contrived her escape at last, and brought
her through the woods to a place of safety, and there her child was
born.

It was over the American frontier, and it was long before she could
write to her husband.  She never knew what became of her letter, but
the hunter friend, Piers Dayman, showed her an American paper which
mentioned Captain Trevor among the officers killed in their attack.
Dayman was devoted to her, and insisted on marrying her, and bringing
up her daughter as his own.  I fancy she was a woman of gentle
passive temper, and had been crushed and terrified by all she had
gone through, so as to have little instinct left but that of clinging
to the protector who had taken her up when she had lost everything
else; and she married him.  Nor did Hester guess till that very day
that Piers Dayman was not her father!

There were other children, sons who have given themselves to hunting
and trapping in the Hudson's Bay Company's territory; but Hester
remained the only daughter, and they educated her well, sending her
to a convent at Montreal, where she learnt a good many
accomplishments.  They were not Roman Catholics; but it was the only
way of getting an education.

Dayman must have been a warm-hearted, tenderly affectionate person.
Hester loved him very much. But he had lived a wild sportsman's life,
and never was happy at rest.  They changed home often; and at last he
was snowed up and frozen to death, with one of his boys, on a bear
hunting expedition.

Not very long after, Hester married this sturdy American, Joel Lea,
who had bought some land on the Canadian side of the border, and her
mother came home to live with them.  They had been married four or
five years, but none of their children had lived.

So it was when the discovery came upon poor old Mrs. Dayman (I do not
know what else to call her), that Fulk Torwood Trevor, the husband of
her youth, was not dead, but was Earl of Trevorsham; married, and the
father of four children in England.

Poor old thing!  She would have buried her secret to the last, as
much in pity and love to him as in shame and grief for herself; and
consideration, too, for the sons, for whom the discovery was only
less bad than for us, as they had less to lose.  Hester herself
hardly fully understood what it all involved, and it only gradually
grew on her.

That winter her mother fell ill, and Mr. Lea felt it right that the
small property she had had for her life should be properly secured to
her sons, according to the division their father had intended.  So a
lawyer was brought from Montreal and her will was made.  Thus another
person knew about it, and he was much struck, and explained to Hester
that she was really a lady of rank, and probably the only child of
her father who had any legal claim to his estates.  Lea, with a good
deal of the old American Republican temper, would not be stirred up.
He despised lords and ladies, and would none of it; but the lawyer
held that it would be doing wrong not to preserve the record.  Hester
had grown excited, and seconded him; and one day, when Lea was out,
the lawyer brought a magistrate to take Mrs. Dayman's affidavit as to
all her past history--marriage witnesses and all.  She was a good
deal overcome and agitated, and quite implored Hester never to use
the knowledge against her father; but she must have been always a
passive, docile being, and they made her tell all that was wanted,
and sign her deposition, as she had signed her will, as Faith Trevor,
commonly known as Faith Dayman.

She did not live many days after.  It was on the 3rd of February,
1836, that she died; and in the course of the summer Hester had a
son, who throve as none of her babies had done.

Then she lay and brooded over him and the rights she fancied he was
deprived of, till she worked herself up to a strong and fixed
purpose, and insisted upon making all known to her father.  Now that
her mother was gone she persuaded herself that he had been a cruel,
faithless tyrant, who had wilfully deserted his young wife.

Joel Lea would not listen to her.  Why should she wish to make his
son a good-for-nothing English lord?  That was his view.  Nothing but
misery, distress, and temptation could come of not letting things
alone.  He held to that, and there were no means forthcoming either
of coming to England to present herself.  The family were well to do,
but had no ready money to lay out on a passage across the Atlantic.
Nor would Hester wait.  She had persuaded herself that a letter would
be suppressed, even if she had known how to address it; but to claim
her son's rights, and make an earl of him, had become her fixed idea,
and she began laying aside every farthing in her power.

In this she was encouraged, not by the lawyer who had made the will--
and who, considering that poor Faith's witnesses had been destroyed,
and her certificate and her wedding ring taken from her by the
Indians, thought that the marriage could not be substantiated--but by
a clever young clerk, who had managed to find out the state of
things; a man named Perrault, who used to come to the farm, always
when Lea was out, and talk her into a further state of excitement
about her child's expectations, and the injuries she was suffering.
It was her one idea.  She says she really believes she should have
gone mad if the saving had not occupied her; and a very dreary life
poor Joel must have had whilst she was scraping together the passage-
money.  He still steadily and sternly disapproved the whole, and when
at two years' end she had put together enough to bring her and her
boy home, and maintain them there for a few weeks, he still refused
to go with her.  The last thing he said was, "Remember, Hester, what
was the price of all the kingdoms of the world!  Thou wilt have it,
then!  Would that I could say, my blessing go with thee."  And he
took his child, and held him long in his arms, and never spoke one
word over him but, "My poor boy!"




CHAPTER II.  TREVORSHAM



I suppose I had better tell what we had been doing all this time.
Adela and I had come out, and had a season or two in London, and my
father had enjoyed our pleasure in it, and paid a good deal of court
to our pretty Adela, because there was no driving Torwood into
anything warmer than easy brotherly companionship.

In fact, Torwood had never cared for anyone but little Emily
Deerhurst.  Once he had come to her rescue, when she was only nine or
ten years old, and her schoolboy cousins were teasing her, and at
every Twelfth-day party since she and he had come together as by
right.  There was something irresistible in her great soft plaintive
brown eyes, though she was scarcely pretty otherwise, and we used to
call her the White Doe of Rylstone.  Torwood was six or seven years
older, and no one supposed that he seriously cared for her, till she
was sixteen.  Then, when my father spoke point blank to him about
Adela, he was driven into owning what he wished.

My father thought it utter absurdity.  The connection was not
pleasant to him; Mrs. Deerhurst was always looked on as a designing
widow, who managed to marry off her daughters cleverly, and he could
believe no good of Emily.

Now Adela always had more power with papa than any of us.  She had a
coaxing way, which his stately old-school courtesy never could
resist.  She used when we were children to beg for holidays, and get
treats for us; and even now, many a request which we should never
have dared to utter, she could, with her droll arch way, make him
think the most sensible thing in the world.

What odd things people can do who have lived together like brothers
and sisters!  I can hardly help laughing when I think of Torwood
coming disconsolately up from the library, and replying, in answer to
our vigorous demands, that his lordship had some besotted notion past
all reason.

Then we pressed him harder--Adela with indignation, and I with
sympathy--till we forced out of him that he had been forbidden ever
to think or speak again of Emily, and all his faith in her laughed to
scorn, as delusions induced by Mrs. Deerhurst.

"I'm sure I hope you'll take Ormerod, Adela," I remember he ended;
"then at least you would be out of the way."

For Sir John Ormerod's courtship was an evident fact to all the
family, as, indeed, Adela was heiress enough to be a good deal
troubled with suitors, though she had hitherto managed to make them
all keep their distance.

Adela laughed at him for his kind wishes, but I could see she meant
to plead for him.  She had her chance, for Sir John Ormerod brought
matters to a crisis at the next ball; and though she thought, as she
said, "she had settled him," he followed it up with her guardian, and
Adela was invited to a conference in the library.

It happened that as she ran upstairs, all in a glow, she came on
Torwood at the landing.  She couldn't help saying in her odd half-
laughing, half-crying voice--

"It will come right, Torwood; I've made terms, I'm out of your way."

"Not Ormerod!" he exclaimed.

"Oh! no, no!"  I can hear her dash of scorn now, for I was just
behind my brother, but she went on out of breath--

"You may go on seeing her, provided you don't say a word--till--till
she's been out two years."

"Adela! you queen of girls, how have you done it?" he began, but she
thrust him aside and flew up into my arms; and when I had her in her
own room it came out, I hardly know how, that she had so shown that
she cared for no one she had ever seen except my father, that they
found they _did_ love each other; and--and--in short they were going
to be married."

Really it seemed much less wonderful then than it does in thinking of
it afterwards.  My father was much handsomer than any young man I
ever saw, with a hawk nose, a clear rosy skin, pure pink and white
like a boy's, curly little rings of white hair, blue eyes clear and
bright as the sky, a tall upright soldierly figure, and a magnificent
stately bearing, courteous and grand to all, but sweetly tender to a
very few, and to her above all.  It always had been so ever since he
had brought her home an orphan of six years old from her mother's
death-bed at Nice.  And he was youthful, could ride or hunt all day
without so much fatigue as either of his sons, and was as fresh and
eager in all his ways as a lad.

And she, our pretty darling!  I don't think Torwood and I in the
least felt the incongruity of her becoming our step-mother, only that
papa was making her more entirely his own.

I am glad we did not mar the sunshine.  It did not last long.  She
came home thoroughly unwell from their journey to Switzerland, and
never got better.  By the time the spring had come round again, she
was lying in the vault at Trevorsham, and we were trying to keep poor
little Alured alive and help my poor father to bear it.

He was stricken to the very heart, and never was the same man again.
His age seemed to come upon him all at once; and whereas at sixty-
five he had been like a man ten years younger, he suddenly became
like one ten years older; and though he never was actually ill, he
failed from month to month.

He could not bear the sight or sound of the poor baby.  Poor Adela
had scarcely lived to hear it was a boy, and all she had said about
it was, "Ursula, you'll be his mother."  And, oh! I have tried.  If
love would do it, I think he could not be more even to dear Adela!

What a frail little life it was!  What nights and days we had with
him; doctors saying that skill could not do it, but care might; and
nurses knowing how to be more effective than I could be; yet while I
durst not touch him I could not bear not to see him.  And I do think
I was the first person he began to know.

Meantime, there was a great difference in Torwood.  He had been very
much of a big boy hitherto.  No one but myself could have guessed
that he cared for much besides a lazy kind of enjoyment of all the
best and nicest things in this world.  He did what he was told, but
in an uninterested sort of way, just as if politics and county
business, and work at the estate, were just as much tasks thrust on
him as Virgil and Homer had been; and put his spirit into sporting,
&c.

But when he was allowed to think hopefully of Emily, it seemed to
make a man of him, and he took up all that he had to do, as if it
really concerned him, and was not only a burden laid on him by his
father.

And, as my father became less able to exert himself, Torwood came
forward more, and was something substantial to lean upon.  Dear
fellow!  I am sure he did well earn the consent he gained at last,
though not with much satisfaction, from papa.

Emily had grown into great sweetness and grace, and Mrs. Deerhurst
had gone on very well.  Of course, people were unkind enough to say,
it was only because she had such prey in view as Lord Torwood; but,
whatever withheld her, it is certain that Emily only had the most
suitable and reasonable pleasures for a young lady, and was
altogether as nice, and gentle, and sensible, as could be desired.
There never was a bit of acting in her, she was only allowed to grow
in what seemed natural to her.  She was just one of the nice simple
girls of that day, doing her quiet bit of solid reading, and her
practice, and her neat little smooth pencil drawing from a print, as
a kind of duty to her accomplishments every day; and filling books
with neat up-and-down MS. copies of all the poetry that pleased her.
Dainty in all her ways, timid, submissive, and as it seemed to me,
colourless.

But Fulk taught her Wordsworth, who was his great passion then, and
found her a perfect listener to all his Tory hopes, fears, and
usages.

Papa could not help liking her when she came to stay with us, after
they were engaged, at the end of two years.  He allowed that, away
from her mother and all her belongings, she would do very well; and
she was so pretty and sweet in her respectful fear of him--I might
almost say awe--that his graceful, chivalrous courtesy woke up again;
and he was beginning absolutely to enjoy her, as she became a little
more confident and understood him better.

How well I remember that last evening!  I was happier than I had been
for weeks about little Alured: the convulsions had quite gone off,
the teeth that had caused them were through, and he had been laughing
and playing on my lap quite brightly--cooing to his mother's
miniature in my locket.  He was such an intelligent little fellow for
eighteen months!  I came down so glad, and it was so pleasant to see
Emily, in her white dress, leaning over my father while he had gone
so happily into his old delight of showing his prints and engravings;
and Torwood, standing by the fire, watching them with the look of a
conqueror, and Jaquetta--like the absurd child she loved to be--
teasing them with ridiculous questions about their housekeeping.

They were to have Spinney Lawn bought for them, just a mile away, and
the business was in hand.  Jaquey was enquiring whether there was a
parlour for The Cid, Torwood's hunter, whom she declared was as dear
to him as Emily herself.  Indeed, Emily did go out every morning
after breakfast to feed him with bread.  I can see her now on
Torwood's arm, with big Rollo and little Malta rolling over one
another after them.

Then came an afternoon when we had all walked to Spinney Lawn, laid
out the gardens together, and wandered about the empty rooms,
planning for them.  The birds were singing in the March sunshine, and
the tomtits were calling "peter" in the trees, and Jaquetta went
racing about after the dogs, like a thing of seven years old, instead
of seventeen.  And Torwood was cutting out a root of primroses,
leaves and all, for Emily, when we saw a fly go along the lane, and
wondered, with a sort of idle wonder.  We supposed it must be
visitors for the parsonage, and so we strolled home, looking for
violets by the way, and Jaquetta getting shiny studs of celandine.
Ah! I remember those glistening stars were all closed before we came
back.

Well, it must come, so it is silly to linger!  There stood the fly at
the hall-door, and the butler met us, saying--

"There's a person with his lordship, my lord.  She would not wait
till you came in, though I told her he saw no one on business without
you--"

Torwood hastened on before this, expecting to see some importunate
person bothering my father with a petition.  What he did see was my
father leaning back in his chair, with a white, confounded,
bewildered look, and a woman, with a child on her lap, opposite.  Her
back was to the door, and Torwood's first impression was that she was
a well-dressed impostor threatening him; so he came quickly to my
father's side, and said--

"What is it father?  I'm here."

My poor father put out his hand feebly to him, and said--

"It is all true, Torwood.  God forgive me; I did not know it!"

"Know what?" he asked anxiously.  "What is it that distresses you,
father?  Let me speak to this person--"

Then she broke out--not loud, not coarsely, but very determinately--
"No, sir; you would be very glad to suppress me, and my child, and my
evidence, no doubt; but the Earl of Trevorsham has acknowledged the
truth of my claim, and I will not leave this spot till he has
acknowledged my mother as his only lawful wife, and my child, Trevor
Lea, as his only lawful heir!"

Torwood thought her insane and only said quietly, as he offered my
father his arm, "I will talk it over with you presently; Lord
Trevorsham is not equal to discuss it now."

"I see what you mean!" she said quickly.  "You would like to make me
out crazy, but Lord Trevorsham knows better.  Do not you, my father?"
she said, with a strong emphasis, the more marked, because it was
concentrated, not loud.

My poor father was shuddering all over with involuntary trembling;
but he put Torwood's hand away from him, and looked up piteously, as
if his heart was breaking (as it was); but he spoke steadily.  "It is
true.  It is true, Torwood.  I was married to poor Faith, when I was
a young man, in Canada.  They sent me proofs that all had perished
when the Indians attacked the village; but--" and then he put his
hands over his face.  It must have been dreadful to see; but Hester
Lea was too much bent on her rights to feel a moment's pity; and she
spoke on in a hard tone, with her eyes fixed on my brother's face.

"But you failed to discover that she was rescued from the Indians;
gave birth to me, your daughter, Hester; and only died two years
ago."

"You hear!  My boy, my poor boy, forgive me; don't leave me to her,"
was what my poor father had said--he who had been so strong.

My brother saw what it all meant now.  "Never fear that, sir," he
said; "I am your son still, any way, you know."

"You will do justice to me," she began, in her fierce tone; but my
brother met it calmly with, "Certainly, we will do our best that
justice should be done.  You have brought proof?"

His quietness overawed her, and she pointed to the papers on the
table.  They were her mother's attested narrative, and the
certificate of her burial.

My brother read aloud, "The 3rd of February, 1836," then he turned to
my father and said, "You observe, father, the difference this may
make, if true, is that of putting little Alured into the place I have
held.  My father's last marriage was on the 15th of April, 1836," he
added to her.  He says she quite glared at him with mortification, as
if he had invented poor little Alured on purpose to baffle her; but
my father breathed more freely.

"And is nothing--nothing to be done for my child, your own grandson?"
exclaimed she, "after these years."

Torwood silenced her by one of his looks.  "We only wish to do
justice," he said. "If it be as you say, you will have a right to a
great deal, and it will not be disputed; but you must be aware that a
claim made in this manner requires investigation, and you can see
that my father is not in a state for an exciting discussion."

"_Your_ father!" she said, with a bitter tone of scorn; but he took
it firmly, though the blood seemed to come boiling to his temples.

"Yes," he said, "my father! and if you are indeed his daughter, you
should show some pity and filial duty, by not forcing the discussion
on him while he can so little bear it."

That staggered her a little, but she said, "I do not wish to do him
any harm, but I have my child's interests to think of.  How do I know
what advantage may be taken against him?"

Torwood saw my father lying back in the chair, trembling, and he
dreaded a fit every moment.

"I give you my word," he said, "that no injustice shall be done you;"
and as she looked keenly at him, as if she distrusted him, he said,
"Yes, you may trust me.  I was bred an English gentleman, whatever I
was born, and I promise you never to come between you and your
rights, when your identity as Lord Trevorsham's daughter is fully
established.  Meantime, do you not see that your presence is killing
him?  Tell me where you may be heard of?"

"I shall stay at the Shinglebay Hotel till I am secure of the justice
I claim," she said.  "Come, my boy, since your own grandfather will
not so much as look at you."

Torwood walked her across the hall.  He was a little touched by those
last words, and felt that she might have looked for a daughter's
reception, so he said in the hall--

"You must remember this is a very sudden shock to us all.  When my
father has grown accustomed to the idea, no doubt he will wish to see
you again; but in his present state of health, he must be our first
consideration.  And unprepared as my sisters are, it would be
impossible to ask you to stay in the house."

She was always a little subdued by my brother's manner; I think its
courtesy and polish almost frightened her, high-spirited, resolute
woman as she was.

"I understand," she said, with a stiff, cold tone.  Jaquetta heard
the echo of it, and wondered.

"But," he added, "when they understand all, and when my father is
equal to it, you shall be sent for."

When he went back to the library he found my poor father unconscious.
It was really only fainting then, and he came round without anyone
being called, and he shrank from seeing anyone but Torwood,
explaining to him most earnestly how, though he was too ill himself
to go to the place, his brother-officer, General Poyntz, had done so
for him, and had been persuaded that the whole settlement and all the
inhabitants had been swept off.  It was such a shock to him that it
nearly killed him.  Poor father! it was grievous to hear him wish it
had quite done so!

We only knew that the woman had upset my father very much, and that
Torwood could not leave him.  Word was sent us to sit down to dinner
without them, and Torwood sent for some gravy soup and some wine for
him.  He went on talking--sometimes about us, but more often about
poor Faith, who seemed to have come back on him in all the beauty and
charm of his first love.  He seemed to be talking himself feverish,
and after a time Torwood thought that silence would be better for
him; so he got him to go to bed, and sent good old Blake, the butler,
who had been his servant in the army, to sit in the dressing-room.
Blake, it turned out, had known all about the old story, so he was a
safe person.  Not that safety mattered much.  "Lady Hester Lea"--she
called herself so now, as, indeed, she had every right--was making it
known at Shinglebay.

So Torwood came out.  I was very anxious, of course, and had been
hovering about on the nursery stairs, where I had gone to see whether
baby was quietly asleep, and I overtook him as he was going down-
stairs.

"How is papa?" I asked.

I shall never forget the white look of the face he raised up to mine
as he said, "Poor father!  Ursula, I can only call the news terrible.
Will you try to stand up against it bravely?"

And then he held out his arms and gathered me into them, and I
believe I said, "I can bear anything when you do that!"

I thought it could only be something about Bertram, who had rather a
way of getting into scrapes, and I said his name; but just as Fulk
was setting me at ease on that score, Jaquetta, who was on the watch,
too, opened the door of the green drawing-room, and we were obliged
to go in.  Then, hardly answering her and Emily, as they asked after
papa, he stood straight up in the middle of the rug and told us,
beginning with-- "Ursula, did you know that our father had been
married as a young man in Canada?"

No. We had never guessed it.

"He was," my brother went on, "This is his daughter."

"Our sister!" Jaquetta asked.  "Where has she been all this time?"

But I saw there must be more to trouble him, and then it came.  "I
cannot tell.  My father had every reason to believe that--she--his
first wife--had been killed in a massacre by the Red Indians; but if
what this person says is true, she only died two years ago.  But it
was in all good faith that he married our mother.  He had taken all
means to discover--"

Even then we did not perceive what this involved.  I felt stunned and
numbed chiefly from seeing the great shock it had been to my father
and to him; but poor little Jaquetta and Emily were altogether
puzzled; and Jaquetta said, "But is this sister of ours such a very
disagreeable person, Torwood?  Why didn't you bring her in and show
her to us?"

Then he exclaimed, almost angrily at her simplicity, "Good heavens!
girls, don't you see what it all means?  If this is true, I am not
Torwood.  We are nothing--nobody--nameless."

He turned to the fire, put both elbows on the mantelshelf, and hid
his face in his hands.  Emily sprang up, and tried to draw down his
arm; and she did, but he only used it to put her from him, hold her
off at arm's length, and look at her--oh! with such a tender face of
firm sorrow!

"Ah! Emily," he said; "you too!  It has been all on false pretences!
That will have to be all over now."

Then Emily's great brown eyes grew bigger with wonder and dismay.

"False pretences!" she cried, "what false pretences?  Not that you
cared for me, Torwood."

"Not that I cared for you," he said, with a suppressed tone that made
his voice _so_ deep!  "Not that _I_ cared, but that Lord Torwood did-
-Torwood is the baby upstairs."

"But it is you--you--you--Fulk!" said Emily, trying to creep and
sidle up to him, white doe fashion.  I believe nobody had ever called
him by his Christian name before, and it made it sweeter to him, but
still he did not give in.

"Ah! that's all very well," he said, and his voice was softer then,
"but what would your mother say?"

"The same as I do," said Emily, undauntedly.  "How should it change
one's feelings one bit," and she almost cried at being held back.

He did let her nestle up to him then, but with a sad sort of smile.
"My child, my darling," he said, "I ought not to allow this!  It will
only be the worse after!"

But just then a servant's step made them start back, and a message
came and brought word that Mr. Blake would be glad if Lord Torwood
would step up.

Yes, my poor father was wandering in his speech, and very feverish,
mixing up Adela and Faith Le Blanc strangely together sometimes, and
at others fancying he was lying ill with his wound, and sending
messages to Faith.

We sent for the doctor, but he could not do anything really.  It had
been a death-blow, though the illness lasted a full week.  He knew us
generally, and liked to see us, but he always had the sense that
something dreadful had happened to us; and he would stroke my hand or
Jaquetta's, and pity us.  He was haunted, too, by the sense that he
ought to do something for us which he could not do.  We thought he
meant to make a will, securing us something, but he was never in a
condition in which my brother would have felt justified in getting
him to sign it.  Indeed there was so little disease about him, and we
thought he would get better, if only we could keep him free from
distress and excitement; so we made his room as quiet as possible,
and discouraged his talking or thinking.

Lady Hester came every day.  My brother had sent for Mr. Eagles, our
solicitor, to meet her the first time, and look at her papers.

He said he could not deny that it looked very bad for us.  Of the
original marriage there was no doubt; indeed, my father had told
Torwood where to find the certificate of it, folded up in the secret
drawer of his desk, with his commission in the army; and the register
of Faith's burial was only too plain.  The only chance there was for
us was, that her identity could not be established; but Mr. Eagles
did not think it would go off on this.  The whole of her life seemed
to be traceable; besides, there was something about Hester that
forbade all suspicion of her being a conscious impostor.  Whether she
would be able to prove herself my father's daughter was another more
doubtful point.  That, however, made no difference, except as to her
own rank and fortune.  If the first wife were proved to have been
alive till 1836, then little Alured was the only true heir to the
title and estate, and, next after him, stood Hester Lea and her son.

People said she was like the family; I never could see it, and always
thought the likeness due to their imagination.  She took one by
surprise.  She was a tall, well-made woman, with a narrow waist, and
a proud, peculiarly upright bearing, though quick, almost sharp in
all her movements, and especially with her eyes.  Those eyes, I
confess, always startled me.  They were clear, bright blue, well
opened eyes--honest eyes one would have called them--only they
appeared to be always searching about, and darting at one when one
least expected it.  The red and white of the face too always had a
clear hard look, like the eyes; the teeth projected a little, and
were so very, very white, that they always seemed to me to flash like
the eyes; and if ever she smiled, it was as much as to say, "I don't
believe you."  Her nose had an amount of hook, too, that always gave
me the feeling of having a wild hawk in the room with me.  Jaquetta
used to call her a panther of the wilderness, but to my mind there
was none of the purring cattish tenderness of the panther.  However,
that might be only because she viewed us as her natural enemies, and
was always on her guard against us, though I do not well know why; I
am sure we only wanted to know the truth and do justice, and Fulk was
so convinced that she would prove her case, and that there was no
help for it, that at the end of hearing Mr. Eagles question her, he
said, "Well, the matter must be tried in due time, but since we are
brothers and sisters, let us be friendly," and he held out his hand
to her.  Mr. Eagles, who told me, said he could have beaten him for
the imprudent admission, only he did look so generous and sweet and
sad; and Lady Hester drew herself up doubtfully and proudly, as if
she could hardly bear to own such a brother, but she did take his
hand, coldly though, and saying, "Let me see my father."

He was obliged to tell her that this was impossible.  I doubt whether
she ever believed him--at least she used to gaze at him with her
determined eyes, as if she meant to abash him out of falsehood, and
she sharply questioned every one about Lord Trevorsham's state.

The determination to be friendly made my brother offer to take her to
us.  She consented, but not very readily, and I am afraid we were
needlessly cold and dry; but we were taken by surprise when my
brother brought her into the sitting-room.  It was not very easy to
welcome the woman who was going to turn us all out, and under such a
stigma; and she--she could hardly be expected to look complacently at
the interlopers who had her place, and the title she had a right to.

She put us through her hard catechism about my dear father's state,
and said at last that she should like to see Lord Torwood.

Taken by surprise, we looked and signed towards him whom that name
had always meant.  He smiled a little and said, "Little Alured!  But,
remember, I am bound to concede nothing till judicial minds are
convinced.  The parties concerned cannot judge.  Can you venture to
have Baby down, Ursula?"

No, I did not venture.  I thought it might have been averted; but I
was only obliged to take her up to the nurseries.  On the way up she
asked which way my father's room lay.  I answered, "Oh! across
there;" I did not know if she might not make a dash at it.

I think she must have heard at Shinglebay how delicate poor little
Alured was, and thence gathered hopes of the succession for her boy,
for she asked her sharp questions about his health all the way up,
and knew that he had had fits.  I could not put her down as one
generally can inquisitive people.  I suppose it was because she was
more sensible of the difference in our real positions than I have as
yet felt.

Baby was asleep; and I think she was touched by the actual sight of
him.  She said he was very like her boy; and though I supposed that a
mere assertion at the time, it was quite true.  Alured and Trevor Lea
have always been remarkably alike.  However, she cross-examined Nurse
about his health even more minutely, and then took her leave; but she
came again every day, walking after the first, as long as my dear
father lived.

And she must have talked, for there came a kind of feeling over
everyone, as well as ourselves, that something was hanging over us,
of which the issue would be known when my father's illness took some
turn.

Mr. Decies came every day to inquire, but I could not bear a strange
eye, and Hester might have been looking on.  I was steeling myself
against him.  Was I right?--oh! was I right?  I have wondered and
grieved!  For I knew well enough what he had been thinking of for
months before; only I did not want it to come to a point.  How was I
to leave little Alured to Jaquetta? or disturb my father by breaking
up his home?  I liked him on the whole, and had come the length of
thinking that if I ever married at all, it would be-- But that's all
nonsense; and mine could not have been what other people's love was,
or I should not have shrunk from the sight and look of him.  If it
had been only poverty that was coming, it would have been a different
thing; but to be nameless impostors!

Mrs. Deerhurst had gone out on a round of visits, when Emily came to
us, taking her younger daughter.  They were not a very letter-writing
family.  It is odd how some people's pen is a real outlet of
expression; while others seem to lack the nerve that might convey
their thoughts to it, even when they live in more sympathy than Emily
could well have had with her mother.

At least, so I understand, what afterwards we wondered at, that Emily
never mentioned Hester; only saying, when, after some days she did
write, that Lord Trevorsham was ill.

So Fulk had the one comfort of being with her when he was out of the
sick room.  I used to see them from the window walking up and down
the terrace in the blue east wind haze of those March days, never
that I could see speaking.  I don't think my brother would have felt
it honourable to tie one additional link between himself and her.  He
had not a doubt as to how her mother would act, but to be in her dear
little affectionate presence was a better help than we could give
him, even though nothing passed between them.

Jaquetta used to wonder at them, and then try to go on the same as
usual; and would wander about the garden and park with her dogs, and
bring us in little anecdotes, and do all the laughing over them
herself.  Poor child! she felt as if she were in a bad dream, and
these were efforts to shake it off, and wake herself.

After all, nothing was ever so bad as those ten days!  But, my
brother always said he was thankful for the respite and time for
thought which they gave him.




CHAPTER III.  THE PEERAGE CASE.



The end came suddenly at last, when we were thinking my dear father
more tranquil.  He passed away in sleep late one evening, just ten
days after Hester's arrival.  She had gone back to her lodgings, and
we did not send to tell her till the morning; but by nine o'clock she
was in the house.

We had crept down to breakfast, Jaquetta and I, feeling very dreary
in the half-light, and as if desolation had suddenly come on us; and
when we heard her fly drive up to the door, Jaquetta cried out almost
angrily, "Torwood, how could you!" and we would have run away, but he
said, "Stay, dear girls; it is better to have it over."

As she came in he rang the bell as if for family prayers, and she had
only asked one or two questions, which he answered shortly, when all
the servants came in, some crying sadly.  Fulk read a very few
prayers--as much as he had voice for, and then, as all stood up, he
had to clear his voice, but he spoke firmly enough.

"It is right that you all should know that a grave doubt has arisen
as to my position here.  Lord Trevorsham had every reason to believe
his first wife had perished by the hands of the Red Indians long
before he married my mother.  What he did was done in entire
ignorance--no breath of blame must light on him.  This lady alleges
that she can produce proofs that she is his daughter, and that her
mother only died in February, '36.  If these proofs be considered
satisfactory by a committee of the House of Lords, then she and
Alured Torwood Trevor will be shown to be his only legitimate
children.  I shall place the matter in the right hands as soon as
possible--that is" (for she was glaring at him), "as soon as the
funeral is over.  Until that decision is made I request that no one
will call me by the title of him who is gone; but I shall remain here
to take care of my little brother, whose guardian my father wished me
to be; and for the present, at least, I shall make no change in the
establishment."

I think everyone held their breath: there was a great stillness over
all--a sort of hush of awe--and then some of the maids began sobbing,
and the butler tried to say something, but he quite broke down; and
just then a troubled voice cried out--

"Torwood, Torwood, what is this?"

And there we saw Bertram in the midst of us, with the haggard look of
a man who had travelled all night, and a dismayed air that I can
never forget.

He had been quartered at Belfast, and we had written to him the day
after my father's illness, to summon him home, but there were no
telegraphs nor railways; and there had been some hindrance about his
leave, so that it had taken all that length of time to bring him.
Fulk had left all to be told on his arrival.  He had come by the
mail-coach, and walked up from the Trevorsham Arms, where he had been
told of our father's death; and so had let himself in noiselessly,
and was standing in the dining-room door, hearing all that Fulk said!

Poor fellow!  Jaquetta flung herself on him, hiding her face against
him, while the servants went, and before any one else could speak,
Hester stood forth, and said, to our amazement--

"Captain Trevor!  You know me.  You can and must bear me witness, and
do me justice--"

"You!  I have seen you before--but--where?  I beg your pardon," he
said, bewildered.

"You remember Sault St. Pierre farm?" she said.

"Sault St. Pierre!  What?  You are Mrs. Lea!  Good heavens!  Where is
your mother?"

"My mother is dead, sir.  You were the first person who made known to
her that her husband, my father, was not dead, but had taken--or
pretended to take--an English woman for his wife."

"Wait!" thundered Fulk, "whatever my father did was ignorantly and
honourably done!"

Bertram was as pale as death, and looked from one of us to the other,
and at last, he gasped out--

"And that--was what she meant?"

"There, sir," said Hester, turning to Torwood, "You see your brother
cannot deny it!  You will not refuse justice to me, and my son."

I fancy she expected that the house was to be given up to her, and
that we were only to remain there on her sufferance, perhaps till
after the funeral.

My brother spoke, "Justice will no doubt be done; but the question
does not lie between you and me, but between me and Alured.  It is,
as I said, a peerage question--and will be decided by the peers.
Incidentally, that enquiry will prove what is your position and rank,
as well as what may or may not be ours.  Any further points depend
upon my father's will, and that will be in the hands of Mr. Eagles.
I think you can see that it would be impossible, as well as
unfeeling, to take any steps until after the funeral."

Whatever Hester Lea was, she was a high-spirited being, standing
there, a solitary woman, a stranger, with all of us four, and one
whole household, as it must have seemed, against her.  I was outraged
and shocked at her defiance at the time, but when, some time after, I
re-read King John, I saw that there was something of Constance in
her.

"That may be," she answered, "but when my child's interests are at
stake, I cannot haggle over conventionalities and proprieties.  I am
the Earl of Trevorsham's only legitimate daughter, and I claim my
right to remain in his house, and to take charge of my infant
brother."

A sign from Fulk stopped me, as I was going to scream at this.

"Remember," he said, "your identity has yet to be proved."

"Your brother there must needs witness.  He has done so."

"What do you witness to, Bertram?" asked Fulk.

"I do not know; I cannot understand," said Bertram.  "I saw this
person in a farm in Lower Canada, and there was an old lady who
seemed to have known my father, and was very much amazed to find he
was not killed in 1814.  I did not hear her name, nor know whose
mother she was, nor anything about her, nor what this dreadful
business means."

"At any rate," said Fulk to her, "your claim to remain in the house
must depend on the legal proof of the fact.  My father's first
marriage is undoubted, but absolute legal certainty that you are the
child of that marriage alone can entitle you to take rank as his
daughter; and, therefore, I am not compelled to admit your claim to
remain here, though if you will refrain from renewing this discussion
till after the funeral, I will not ask you to leave the house."

"I do not recognize your right to ask or not to ask," she said,
undauntedly.

"I am either Lord Trevorsham's rightful heir--and it is not yet shown
that I am not--or else I am the guardian he appointed for his son.  I
know this to be so, and Mr. Eagles, who will soon be here, will show
it to you in the will if you wish it.  Therefore, until the decision
is made, when, if it goes against me, the child will no doubt be made
a ward in Chancery, I am the person responsible for him and his
property."

"I have no doubt you will take advantage of me and of every quibble
against me;" and there at last she began to break down; "but if there
is justice in heaven or earth my child shall have it, though you and
all were leagued against him."

And there she began to sob.  And those brothers of mine, they
actually grew compassionate; they ran after wine; they called us to
bring salts, and help her.  Emily shuddered, and put her hands behind
her; but Jaquetta actually ran up to the woman, and coaxed her and
comforted her, when I had rather have coaxed a tigress.

But I had to go to the table and pour out tea and give it to her with
all the rest.  I don't know how we got through that breakfast.  But
we did, and then I made the housekeeper put her into the very best
rooms.  Anything if she would only stay there out of the way.

When I came back, I found Fulk explaining why he had spoken at once,
and he said he felt that she would have no scruples about taking the
initiative, and that everyone would be having surmises.

Poor Bertram was even more cut up than we were.  It came more
suddenly, and he felt as if it was all his doing.  He had no hope,
and he took all ours away.  There had been something in the old woman
that impressed him as genuine, and he had no doubt that she had known
and loved our father.  Nay, no one could suspect Hester of not
believing in her own story; the only question was whether the links
of evidence could be substantiated.

The next thing that happened--I can't tell which day it was--was Mrs.
Deerhurst's coming, professing to be dreadfully shocked and overcome
by my father's death, to take away Emily.  She must be so much in our
way.  I, who saw her first, answered only by begging to keep her--our
great comfort and the one thing that cheered and upheld my brother.

Mrs. Deerhurst looked keenly at me; and I began to wonder what she
knew, but just then came Fulk into the room, with his calm, set,
determined face.  I knew he would rather speak without me, so I went
away, and only knew what he could bear to tell me afterwards.

Mrs. Deerhurst had been a great deal kinder than he expected.  No
doubt she would not break the thing off while there was a shred of
hope that he was an earl; but he could not drive her to allow, in so
many words, that it must depend upon that.

He had quite made up his mind that it was not right to enjoy Emily's
presence and the comfort it gave him, unless he was secure of Mrs.
Deerhurst's permitting the engagement under his possible
circumstances.

I believe he nattered himself she would, and let her deceive him with
thinking so, instead of, as we all did, seeing that what she wanted
was to secure the credit of being constant and disinterested in case
he retained his position.  So, although she took Emily home, she left
him cheered and hopeful, admiring her, and believing that she so
regarded her daughter's happiness that, if he had enough to support
her, she would overlook the loss of rank and title.  He went on half
the evening talking about what a remarkable woman Mrs. Deerhurst was;
and, at any rate, it cheered him up through those worst days.

Our Lupton uncles came, and were frightfully shocked and incredulous;
at least, Uncle George was.  Uncle Lupton himself remembered
something of my father having told him of a former affair in America.

They would not let Jaquetta and me go to the funeral; and they were
wise, for Hester thrust herself in--but it is of no use to think
about that.  Indeed, there is not much to tell about that time, and I
need not go into the investigation.  It was all taken out of our
hands, as my brother had said.  Perrault came over from Canada, and
brought his witnesses, but not Joel Lea.  He had nothing to prove,
had conscientious scruples about appearing in an English court of
justice, and still hoped it would all come to nothing.

We stayed on at the London house--the lawyers said we ought, and that
possession was "nine-tenths," &c.  Besides, we wanted advice for
Baby, who had been worse of late.

The end of it was that it went against us.  Faith's marriage, her
identity, and Hester's, were proved beyond all doubt, and little
Alured was served Earl of Trevorsham.  Poor child, how ill he was
just then!  It was declared water on the brain!  I could hardly think
about anything else; but they all said it seemed like a mockery, and
that he would not bear the title a week.  And then Lady Hester would
have been, not Countess of Trevorsham, but Viscountess Torwood, and
at any rate she halved the personal property: all that had been meant
for us.

For we already knew that there was nothing in the will that could do
us any good.  All depended on my mother's marriage settlements, and
as the marriage was invalid they were so much waste paper.

My uncles, to whom my poor mother's fortune reverted, would not touch
it, and gave every bit back to us; but it was only 10,000 pounds, and
what was that among the four of us?

I was in a sort of maze all the time, thinking of very little beyond
dear little Alured's struggle for life, and living upon his little
faint smiles when he was a shade better.

Jaquetta has told me more of what passed than I heeded at the time.

Our brothers decided not to retain the Trevor name, to which we had
no right; but they had both been christened Torwood; after an old
family custom, and they thought it best to use this still as a
surname.

Bertram felt the shame, as he would call it, the most; but Fulk held
up his head more.  He said where there was no sin there was no shame;
and that to treat ourselves as under a blot of disgrace was insulting
our parents, who had been mistaken, but not guilty.

Bertram was determined against returning to his regiment, and it
would have been really too expensive.  His plan was to keep together,
and lay out our capital upon a piece of ground in New Zealand, which
was beginning to be settled.

Jaquetta was always ready to be delighted.  Dear child, her head was
full of log huts and Robinson Crusoe life, and cows to milk herself;
and I really think she would have liked to go ashore in the Swiss
family's eight tubs!


The thorough change, after all the sorrow, seemed delicious to her!
I heard her and Bertram laughing down below, and wondered if they got
the length of settling what dogs they would take out!

And Fulk!  He really had almost persuaded himself that Emily would go
with us; or at the very worst, would wait till he had achieved
prosperity and could come home and fetch her.

Mrs. Deerhurst had declared that waiting for the decision was so bad
for her nerves, that she must take her to Paris; and actually our
dear old stupid fellow had not perceived what that meant, for the
woman had let him part tenderly with Emily in London, with promises
of writing, &c., the instant the case was decided.  It passed his
powers to suppose she could expose her daughter's heart to such a
wreck.  So he held up, cheerful and hopeful, thinking what a treasure
of constancy he had!  And when they had built their castle in New
Zealand, they sent up Jaquey to call me to share it with them.  Baby
was asleep, and I went down; but when I heard the plan--it was cross
to be so unsympathizing, but I did feel hurt and angry at their
forgetting him; and I said, "I shall never leave Alured."

"Ursula! you could not stay by yourself," said Jaquey.  And Bertram,
who had hardly ever seen him, and could not care for him said it was
nonsense, and even if there were a chance of the child living, I
could not be left behind.

I was wrought up, and broke out that he would and should live, and
that I would come as a stranger, a nursery governess, and watch over
him, and never abandon him to Hester.

"Never fear, Ursula," said Fulk, "if he lives, he will be in safe
hands."

"Safe hands!  What are safe hands for a child like that!  Hester's,
who only wishes him out of her way?"

"For shame!" the others said, and I answered that, of course, I did
not think Hester meant ill by him, but that, where the doctors had
said only love and care could save him--no care was safe where he was
not loved; and I cried very, very bitterly, more than I had done even
for my father, or for anything else before; and I fell into a storm
of passion, at the cruelty of leaving the poor little thing, whom his
dying mother had trusted to me, and declared I would never, never do
it.

I was right in the main, it seems to me, but unjust and naughty in
the way I did it; and when Fulk, with some hesitation, began to talk
of my not being asked to go just yet--not while the child lived--I
turned round in a really violent, naughty fit, with--"You too, Fulk,
I thought you loved your little brother better than that?  You only
want to be rid of him, and leave him to Hester, and he will die in
her hands."

Fulk began to say that the Court of Chancery never gave the custody
to the next heir.  But I rushed away again to the nursery, and sat
there, devising plans of disguising myself in a close cap and blue
spectacles, and coming to offer myself as Lord Trevorsham's
governess.

The child had no relations whatever on his mother's side, and though,
if he had been healthy, nurses and tutors might have taken care of
this baby lordship, even that would have been sad enough; and for the
feeble little creature, whose life hung on a thread, how was it to be
thought of?  I fully made up my mind to stay, even if they all went.
I told Jaquetta, so--in my vehemence dashed all her bright
anticipation, and sent her again in tears to bed.  I wish unhappiness
would not make one so naughty!

The next day poor Fulk was struck down.  A letter came from Mrs.
Deerhurst to break off the engagement, and a great parcel containing
all the things he had given Emily.  She must have packed them up
before leaving England, while she was still flattering him.  Not a
word nor a line was there from Emily herself!--only a supplication
from the mother that he would not rend her child's heart by
persisting--just as if she had not encouraged him to go on all this
time!

Nothing would serve him but that he must dash over to Paris, to see
her and Emily.

Railroads were not, and it was a ten days' affair at the shortest;
and, with all our prospects doubtful and Alured still so ill, it was
very trying.  How Bertram did rave at the folly and futility of the
expedition! but one comfort was, that Alured was a ward of Chancery,
and, in the vast kindness and commiseration everyone bestowed upon
us, no one tried to hurry us or turn us out.

Hester used to come continually to inquire after her brother, and
there was something in her way that always made me shudder when she
asked after him.  I knew she could not wish for his life, and gloated
over all the reports she could collect of his weakness.  I felt more
and more horror of her; God forgive me for not having tried not to
hate her.  I sometimes doubt whether my dread and distrust were not
visible, and may not have put it into her head.

And then came Mr. Decies, again and again.  He was faithful--I see it
now.  He cared not if I had neither name nor fortune; he held fast to
his proposals.  And I?  Oh, I was absorbed--I was universally
defiant--I did not do him justice in the bitterness I did not
realise.  I thought he was constant only out of honour and pity, and
I did not choose to open my heart to understand his pleadings or
accept them as earnest--I was harsh.  Oh, how little one knows what
one is doing!  Too proud to be grateful--that was actually my case.
I was enamoured of the blue-spectacle plan; I had romances of
watching Alured day and night, and pouring away dangerous draughts.
The very fancy, I see now, was playing with edged tools; I feel as if
my imagination had put the possibility into the very air.

Once indeed--when Jaquetta had been telling me she did not understand
my unkindness; and observed that, even for Alured's sake, she could
not see why I did not accept--I did begin to regard him as a possible
protector for the boy.  But no; the blue spectacles would be the more
assiduous guardian, said my foolish fancy.

Before I had thought it over into sense or reason, Fulk came back
from Paris.  He had not been really crushed till now.  He was white,
and silent, and resolute, and very gentle; all excitement of manner
gone.  He did not say one word, but we knew it was all over with him,
and that he could not have had one scrap of comfort or hope.

Nor had he, though even to me he told nothing, till we were together
in the dark one evening, much later.  He did insist upon seeing
Emily; but her mother would not leave her, or take her eyes off her,
and the timid thing did nothing but sob and cry, in utter
helplessness and shame, and never even gave him a look.

It was not the being neglected and cast off that he felt as such a
wrong, to both himself and Emily, but the being drawn on with false
hopes and promises to expect that she was to belong to him, after
all; and he was cruelly disappointed that Emily had not energy to
cling to him--he had made so sure of her.

Bertram and Jaquetta had expected all along that he would be the more
eager to be off to the Antipodes when everything was swept away from
him here, and he did sit after dinner talking it over in a business-
like way, while Bertram gave him all the information he had been
collecting in his absence.

I would not listen.  I was determined against going away from my
charge; I had rather have been his housemaid than have left him to
Hester, and I must have looked like a stone as I got up, and left
them to their talk while I went back to the boy.

I heard Bertram say while I was lighting my candle, "Poor Ursula! she
will not see it.  Hart told me to-day that the child is dying--would
hardly get through the night."

Now I had been thinking all the afternoon that he was better, and I
had gone down to dinner cheered.  I turned into the doorway, and told
Fulk to come and see.

He did come.  There was Alured, lying, as he had lain all day, upon
his nurse's knees, with her arm under his head.  He had not moaned
for a long time, and I had left him in a more comfortable sleep.  He
opened his eyes as we came in, held out his hands more strongly than
we thought he could have done, quite smiled--such an intelligent
smile--and said, "Tor--Tor--," which was what he had always called
his brother, making his gesture to go to him.

The tears came into Fulk's eyes, though he smiled back and spoke in
his sweet, strong voice, and held out his arms, while we told him he
had better sit down.  Poor nurse! she must have been glad enough--she
had held him all that live-long day!  And he was quite eager to go to
his brother, and smiled up and cooed out, "Tor--Tor," again, as he
felt himself on the strong arm.

Fulk bade nurse go and lie down, and he would hold him.  And so he
did.  I fed the child, as I had done at intervals all day; and he
sometimes slept, sometimes woke and murmured or cooed a little, and
Fulk scarcely spoke or stirred, hour after hour.  He had been
travelling day and night, but, strange to say, that enforced calm--
that tender stillness and watching, was better for him than rest.  He
would only have tossed about awake, if he had gone to bed after a
discussion with Bertram.

But in the morning Dr. Hart came, quite surprised to find the child
alive; and when he looked at him and felt his pulse, he said, "You
have saved him for this time, at least."

(Everybody was lavish of pronouns, and chary of proper names.  Nobody
knew what to call anybody.)

His little lordship was able to be laid in his cot, and Fulk, almost
blind now with sheer sleep, stumbled off to his room, threw himself
on his bed, and slept for seven hours in his clothes without so much
as moving.  He confessed that he had never had such unbroken,
dreamless sleep since he had first seen Hester Lea's face.

That little murmur of "Tor--Tor" had settled all our fates.  I don't
think he had realised before how love was the one thing that the
child's life hung upon, and that the boy himself must have that love
and trust.  Then, too, when he had waked and dressed and come down,
the first person he met was Hester, with her hard, glittering eyes,
trying to condole, and not able to hide how the exulting look went
out of her face on hearing that the Earl (as she chose to term him)
was better.

She supposed some arrangement would soon be made, and Fulk said he
should see the lawyers at once about it, and arrange for the personal
guardianship of Lord Trevorsham.

"Of course I am the only proper person while he lives, poor child,"
she said.

I broke in with, "The next heir is never allowed the custody."

I wish I had not.  She hastily and proudly said "What do you mean?"
and Fulk quickly added that "the Lord Chancellor would decide."

The next day he went out, and on returning came up to me in the
nursery, and called me into the study.

"Ursula," he said, "I find that, considering the circumstances, there
will be no objection made to our retaining the personal charge of our
little brother.  Everyone is very kind.  Ours is not a common case of
illegitimacy, and my father's well-known express wishes will be
allowed to prevail."

"And your character," I could not help saying; and he owned that it
did go for something, that he was known to everybody, and had some
standing of his own, apart from the rank he had lost.

Then he went on to say that this would of course put an end to the
emigration plan, so far as he was concerned.  No doubt in the
restless desire of change coming after such a fall and disappointment
it was a great sacrifice; but as he said, "There did not seem
anything left for him in life but just to try to do what seemed most
like one's duty."  And then he said it did not seem a worthy thing to
do nothing, but just exist on a confined income, and the only thing
he did know anything about, and was not too old to learn, was
farming, and managing an estate.

Trevorsham would want an agent, for old Hall was so old, that my
brother had really done all his work for a year or two past; and he
had felt his way enough to know he could get appointed to the agency,
if he chose.  The house was to be let, but there was a farm to be had
about two miles off, with a good house, and he thought of taking it,
and stocking it, and turning regular farmer on his own account; while
looking after the property, and bringing Alured up among his own
people and interests.

Bertram did not like this at all.  "Among all our old friends and
acquaintance?  Impossible! unbearable!" he said.

But Fulk's answer, was-- "Better so!  If we went to a strange place,
and tried to conceal it, it would always be oozing out, and be
supposed disgraceful.  If my sisters can bear it, I had rather
confront it straightforwardly--"

"And be _pitied_"--said Bertram, with _such_ a contemptuous tone.

Nobody, however, thought it would be advisable for him to give up the
New Zealand plan, nor did he ever mean it for a moment; indeed, he
declared that he should go and prepare for us; for that we should
very soon get tired of Skimping's Farm, and come out to him; meaning,
of course, that our dear charge would be over.

He even wanted Jaquetta to come with him at once, and the log huts
and fern trees danced before her eyes as the blue spectacles had done
before mine; but she did not like to leave me, and Fulk would not
encourage it, for we both thought her much too young and too tenderly
brought up to be sent out to a wild settler's life alone with
Bertram, and without a friend near.

To be farmers' sisters where we had been the Earl's daughters--well,
I had much rather then that it had been somewhere else; but I saw it
was best for Baby and still more so for Fulk, and clear little Jaquey
held fast to me and to him, and so it was settled!

Our friends and relatives had much rather we had all emigrated.  They
did not know what to do with us, and would have been glad to have had
us all out of sight for ever, "damaged goods shipped off to the
colonies."  We felt this and it heartened us up to stay out of the
spirit of opposition.

Old Aunt Amelia, who fussed and cried over us, and our two uncles,
who gave us good advice by the yard!  Alas! I fear we were equally
ungrateful to them, both cold and impatient.  No, we did not bear it
really well, though they said we did.  We had plenty of pride and
self-respect, and that carried us on; but there was no submission, no
notion of taking it religiously.  I don't mean that we did not go to
church, and in the main try to do right.  Any one more upright than
my brother it would have been hard to find; but as to any notion that
religious feeling could help us, and that our reverse might be
blessed to us, that would have seemed a very strange language indeed!

And so we were hard, we would bear no sympathy but from one another,
and even among ourselves we never gave way.

People admired us, I fancy, but were alienated and disappointed, and
we were quite willing _then_ to have it so.




CHAPTER IV.  SKIMPING'S FARM.



Skimping's Farm was the unlucky name of the place, and Fulk would
allow of no modification--his resolution was to accept it all
entirely.  Now I love no spot on earth so well.  It was very
different then.

The farm-house lay on the slope of the hill, in the parish of
Trevorsham, but with the park lying between it and the main village.
The ground sloped sharply down to the little river, which, about two
miles lower down, blends with the Avon, being, in fact, a creek out
of Shinglebay.  Beneath the house the stream is clear and rocky, but
then comes a flat of salt marsh, excellent for cattle; and then,
again, the river becomes tidal, and reaches at high water to the
steep banks, sometimes covered with wood, sometimes with pasture or
corn.

Then under the little promontory comes the hamlet of fisherfolk at
Quay Trevor; and then the coast sweeps away to Shinglebay town, as
anyone may see by the map.

Ours is an old farm, and had an orchard of old apple-trees sloping
down to the river--as also did the home field, only divided by a low
stone wall from the little strip of flower-garden before the house,
which in those days had nothing in it but two tamarisks, a tea-tree,
and a rose with lovely buds and flowers that always had green hearts.

There was a good-sized kitchen-garden behind, and the farm-yard was
at the side by the back door.  The house is old and therefore was
handsome outside, even then, but the chief of the lower story was
comprised in one big room, a "keeping-room," as it was called, with
an open chimney, screened by a settle, and with a long polished
table, with a bench on either side.  Into this room the front porch--
a deep one, with seats--opened.  At one end was a charming little
sitting-room, parted off; at the other, the real kitchen for cooking,
and the dairy and all the rest of the farm offices.

Up-stairs--the stairs are dark oak, and come down at one end of the
big kitchen--there is one beautiful large room, made the larger by a
grand oriel window under the gable, one opening out of it, and four
more over the offices; then a step-ladder and a great cheese-room,
and a perfect wilderness of odd nooks up in the roof.

As to furniture, Fulk had bought that with the stock and everything
else belonging to the farm for a round sum; and the Chancery people
told us that we might take anything for ourselves from home that had
been bought by ourselves, had belonged to our mother, or been given
to us individually.

So the furniture of Fulk's rooms in London--most of which he had had
at Oxford--my own piano, our books, and various little worktables,
chairs, pictures, and knicknacks appertained to us; also, we brought
what belonged to the little one's nursery, and put him in the large
room.  His grand nurse--Earl though he was--could not stand the
change; but old Blake, who was retiring into a public house, as he
could do nothing else for us, suggested his youngest sister, who
became the comfort of my life, for she was the widow of a small
farmer, and could give me plenty of sound counsel as to how much pork
to provide for the labourers, and how much small beer would keep them
in good heart, and not make them too merry.  And she had too much
good sense to get into rivalry with Susan Sisson, the hind's wife,
who lived in a kind of lean-to cottage opening into the farm-yard,
and was the chief (real) manager of the dairy and poultry--though
such was not Jaquetta's view of the case by any manner of means.

What a help it was to have one creature who did enjoy it all from the
very first!

The parting with Bertram was sore, and one's heart will ache after
him still at times, though he is prosperous and happy with his wife
and fine family at the new Trevorsham.  Fulk went through it all in a
grave set way, as if he knew he never should be happy again, and
accepted everything in silence, as a matter of course, not wanting to
sadden us, but often grieving me more by his steady silence than if
he had complained.

One thing he was resolved on, that he would be a farmer out and out--
not a gentleman farmer, as he said; but though he only wore
broadcloth in the evening and on Sundays, I can't say he ever
succeeded in not looking more of the gentleman.

We fitted up the little parlour with our prettiest things, and it was
our morning room, and we put a screen across the big keeping-room,
which made it snug for a family gathering place.  But those were the
days when everyone was abusing the farmers for not living with their
labourers in the house, and Fulk was determined to try it, at least
the first year, either for the sake of consistency, or because he was
resolved to keep our expenses as low as possible.  "Failure would be
ruin," he impressed on us, and he thought we ought to live on the
profits of the farm, except what was directly spent on the boy, and
to save the income of the agency.  (Taking one year with another, we
did so.)

So he gave up his own dear old Cid, and only used the same horses
that had sufficed for our predecessor--a most real loss and
deprivation--and he chose to take meals at the long table in the
keeping-room with the farm servants.  He said we girls might dine in
our little parlour apart, but there was no bearing that, and the
whole household dined and supped together.  Breakfast was at such
uncertain times that we left that for the back kitchen, and had our
own little round table by the fire, or in the parlour, at half-past
seven; and so we took care to have a good cup of coffee for Fulk when
he came in about five or six; but the half-past twelve dinner and
eight o'clock supper were at the long table, our three selves and
Baby at the top--Baby between me and Mrs. Rowe ("Ally's Rowe," as he
called her), then George and Susan Sisson opposite each other, the
under nurse, the two maids, the hind, and the three lads.

I believe it was a very awful penance to them at first.  We used to
hear them splashing away at the pump and puffing like porpoises; and
they came in with shining faces and lank hair in wet rats' tails, the
foremost of which they pulled on all occasions of sitting down,
getting up, or being offered food.

But they always behaved very well, and the habit of the animal at
feeding-time is so silent that I believe the restraint was
compensated by the honour; and it did civilise them, thanks, perhaps,
to Susan's lectures on manners, which we sometimes overheard.

Fulk made spasmodic attempts to talk to Sisson; but the chief
conversation was Jaquetta's.  She went on merrily all dinner-time,
asking about ten thousand things, and hazarding opinions that
elicited amusement in spite of ourselves: as when she asked, what
sheep did with their other two legs, or suggested growing canary
seed, as sure to be a profitable crop.  Indeed, I think she had a
little speculation in it on her own account in the kitchen garden--
only the sparrows were too many for her--and what they left would not
ripen.

But the child was always full of some new and rare device, rattling
on anyhow, not for want of sense, but just to force a smile out of
Fulk and keep us all alive, as she called it.  She knew every bird
and beast on the farm, fed the chickens, collected the eggs, nursed
tender chicks or orphan lambs and weaning calves, and was in and out
with the dogs all day, really as happy as ten queens, with the
freedom and homely usefulness of the life--tripping daintily about in
the tall pattens of farm life in those days, and making fresh
enjoyment and fun of everything.

I used to be half vexed to see her grieve so little over all we had
lost; but Fulk said, "I suppose it is very hard to break down a
creature at that age."

And even I was cheered by the wonderful start of health Alured took
from the time Mrs. Rowe had him.  He grew fat and rosy, and learnt to
walk; and Dr. Hart was quite astonished at his progress, and said he
was nearly safe from any more attacks of that fearful water on the
brain till he was six or seven years old, and that, till that time,
we must let him be as much as possible in the open air, and with the
animals, and not stimulate his brain--neither teach, nor excite, nor
contradict him, nor let him cry.  The farm life was evidently the
very thing he wanted.

What a reprieve it was, even though it should be only a reprieve!

He was already three years old, and was very clever and observant.

We were glad that he was too young to take heed of the change, or to
see what was implied by his change from "baby," to "my lord," and we
always called him by his Christian name.  Mrs. Rowe felt far too much
for us to gossip to him, and he was always with her or with me,
though I do believe he liked Ben--the great, rough, hind--better than
anyone else; would lead Mrs. Rowe long dances after him, to see him
milk the cows, and would hold forth to him at dinner, in a way as
diverting to us as it was embarrassing to poor Ben, who used to blurt
out at intervals, "Yoi, my lord," and "Noa, my lord," while the two
maids tried to swallow their tittering.  The farmers at market used
to call Fulk, "my lord," by mistake, and then colour up to their eyes
through their red faces.

I believe, indeed, it was their name for him among themselves, and
that they watched him with a certain contemptuous compassion, in the
full belief that he would ruin himself.

And he declares he should if he had lived a bit more luxuriously, or
if he had not had the agency salary to help him through the years of
buying experience and the bad season with which he began.

Nor was it till he had for some years introduced that capital breed
which thrives so well in the salt marshes, and twice following showed
up the prize ox at the county show, that they began to believe in
"Farmer Torwood," or think his "advanced opinions" in agriculture
anything but a gentleman's whimsies.

As to friends and acquaintance, I am afraid we showed a great deal of
pride and stiffness.  They were kinder than we deserved, but we
thought it prying and patronage, and would not accept what we could
not return.

It is not fair to say we.  It was only myself--Jaquetta never saw
anything but kindness, and took it pleasantly, and Fulk was too busy
and too unhappy to be concerned about our visiting matters.  If I saw
anyone coming to call I hid myself in the orchard, or if I was taken
by surprise I was stiffness itself; and then I wrote a set of cards
(Miss Torwood and Miss Jaquetta Torwood), and drove round in the
queer old-fashioned gig to leave them, and there was an end of it;
for I would accept no invitations, though Jaquetta looked at me
wistfully.  And thus I daunted all but old Miss Prior.  Poor old
thing!  All her pleasures had oozed down from our house in old times
to her; and her gratitude was indomitable, and stood all imaginable
rebuffs that courtesy permitted me.  I believe she only pitied and
loved me the more, and persevered in the dreadful kindness that has
no tact.

It did not strike me that pleasure might be good for Jaquetta, or
that Fulk's stern silent sorrow might have been lightened by variety.
Used as he had been to political life and London society, it was no
small change to have merely the market for interest, the farm for
occupation, and no society but ourselves; no newspaper but the County
Chronicle once a week; no new books, for Mudie did not exist then,
even if we could have afforded it.  We had dropped out of the guinea
country book club, and Knight's "Penny Magazine" was our only fresh
literature.  However, Jaquetta never was much of a reader, and was
full of business--queen of the poultry, and running after the weakly
ones half the day, supplementing George Sisson's very inadequate
gardening--aye, and his wife's equally rough cooking.  She found a
receipt book, and turned out excellent dishes.  She could not bear,
she said, to see Fulk try to eat grease, and with an effort at
concealment, assisted by the dogs, fall back upon bread and cheese.

Luckily plain work in the school-room had not gone out in our day,
and I could make and mend respectably, but I had to keep a volume of
Shakespeare, Scott, or Wordsworth open before me, and learn it by
heart, to keep away thoughts, which might have been good for me; but

no--they were working on their own bitterness.

Sunday was the hardest day of all to Fulk, for this was the only one
on which he could not be busy enough to tire himself out.  We were a
mile from church, and when we got to the worm-eaten farm pew there
was a smell, as Jaquey said, as if generations of farmers had been
eating cheese there, and generations of mice eating after them; and
she always longed to shut up a cat there.

The old curate was very old, and nothing seemed alive but the fiddles
in the gallery--indeed, after the "Penny Magazine" had made us
acquainted with the Nibelung, Jaquey took to calling Sisson, Folker
the mighty fiddler, so determined were his strains.

After the great house was shut up, one service was dropped, and so
the latter part of the day was spent in a visit to all the livestock,
Fulk laden with Alured, and Jaquetta with tit bits for each and all.

She and Alured really enjoyed it, and we tried to think we did!  And
then Fulk used to stride off on a long solitary walk, or else sit in
the porch with his arms across, in a dumb heavy silence, till he saw
us looking at him; and then he would shake himself, and go and find
Sisson, and discuss every field and beast with him.

At least we thought we should have been at peace here; but one
afternoon, when Jaquetta had gone across to the village to see some
purchase at the shop, she came back flushed and breathless, and said
as she sat down by me, "Oh! Ursie, Ursie, I met Miss Prior; and _she_
has bought Spinney Lawn."

_She_ was Hester; it had never meant anyone else amongst us when it
was said in that voice.  Fulk, when we told him, had, it appeared,
known it for some days past.  All he said was, "Well! she has every
right."

And when I exclaimed, "Just like a harpy, come to watch our poor
child!" he said, "Nonsense."

But I knew I was right, and sat brooding--till presently he said,
"Put that out of your head, Ursula, or you will not be able to behave
properly to her."

"I don't see any good in behaving properly to her," said Jaquetta.
"What business has she to come here?"

"I do not choose to regale the neighbourhood with our family jars"--
said Fulk, quietly.

And then--such a ridiculous child as Jaquetta was--she burst out
laughing, and cried, "What a feast they would be!   Preserved crabs,
I suppose;" and she brought a tiny curl into the corner of his mouth.

My pride was up, and I remember I answered, "You are right, Fulk.  No
one shall say we are jealous, or shrink from the sight of her!"

"When Smith told me that he had no idea who was the bidder, or he
would not have suffered it," said Fulk, "I told him I could have no
possible objection!"

And so we endured it in our pride and our dignity.

Lady Hester Lea was the heroine of the neighbourhood.  The romance of
the disowned daughter was charming; and I was far too disagreeable to
excite any counterbalancing pity.  She was handsome, and everybody
raved about her likeness to poor papa and the family portraits; and
her Montreal convent had given her manners quite distinct from
English vulgarity; or, maybe, her blood told on her bearing, for she
was immensely admired for her demeanour, quite as much as for her
beauty.

Old Miss Prior--whom no coldness on my part could check in her
assiduous kindness, and nothing would hinder from affectionately
telling us whatever we did not want to hear--kept us constantly
informed of the new comer's triumphs.  Especially she would dwell
upon the sensation that Lady Hester produced, and all that the
gentlemen said of her.  Her name stood as lady patroness to all the
balls and fancy fairs, and archery, that Shinglebay produced; and
there was no going to shop there without her barouche coming
clattering down the street with the two prancing greys, and poor
little Trevor inside, with a looped-up hat and ostrich feather
exactly like Alured's; for by some intention she always dressed him
in the exact likeness of his little uncle's.  I used to think Miss
Prior told her, and sedulously prevented her ever seeing his lordship
out of his brown holland pinafores, but the same rule still held
good.

What tender enquiries poor Miss Prior used to make after "the dear
little lord," as she called him.  My asseverations of his health and
intelligence generally eliciting that it was current among Lady
Hester's friends that he could neither stand nor speak, and was so
imbecile that it was a mercy that he could not live to be eight years
old.

Of course that was what Hester was waiting for.  And no small
pleasure was it when Alured would come pattering in with a shout of
"Ursa, Ursa," and as soon as he saw a lady, would stop, and pull off
his hat from his chestnut curls like the little gentleman he always
was.

Spinney Lawn was bought before Joel Lea came to England.  If he had
seen where it was I doubt whether he would have consented to the
purchase; but Perrault managed it all, and then, with what he had
made out of the case, bought himself a share in Meakin's office at
Shinglebay, and constituted himself Lady Hester's legal adviser.

Mr. Lea, after vainly trying to get his wife to return to Sault St.
Pierre, thought it wrong to be apart from her and his son, and came
to England.

Fulk went at once to call on him, expecting to be disgusted with
Yankeeisms; but came home, saying he had found a more unlucky man
than himself!

Fancy a great, big, plain, hard-working back-woodsman, bred only to
the axe and rifle, with illimitable forests to range in, happy in
toil and homely plenty, and a little king to himself, set down in an
English villa, with a trim garden and paddock, and servants
everywhere to deprive him of the very semblance to occupation!

Poor man! he had not even the alleviation of being proud of it, and
trying to live up to it.  Puritan to the bone of his broad back, he
thought everything as wicked as it was wearisome and foolish; and
lived like Faithful in "Vanity Fair," solely enduring it for the sake
of his wife and son.  I suppose he could not have carried her off, or
altered her course without the strong hand; for she was a determined
woman, all the more resolute because she acted for her child.

He was a staunch Dissenter, and would not go to church with Lady
Hester, who did so as a needful part of the belonging of her station,
or, perhaps, to watch over us, but trudged two miles every Sunday to
the meeting-house at Shinglebay, where he was a great light, and
spent all that she allowed him on the minister and the Sunday school.

As to society, he abhorred it on principle, and kept out of the way
when his wife gave her parties.  If she had an old affection for him
in the depths of her heart, it was swallowed up in vexation and
provocation; and no wonder, for the verdict of society, as Miss Prior
reported it, was--"How sad that such a woman as Lady Hester should
have been thrown away on a mere common man--not a bit better than a
labourer."

I detested him like all the rest; but Fulk declared he was sublime in
passive endurance, and used to make opportunities of consulting him
about cattle or farming, just to interest him.

Fulk and the dissenting minister were the only friends the poor man
had, and the latter Hester would not let into her house.  As to
Perrault, he loathed and shrank from him as the real destroyer of all
his peace, and still the most dangerous influence about his wife.  He
never said so, but we felt it.

I think the poor man's happiest hours were spent here; and, now and
then in a press of work, or to show how a thing ought to be done, he
put his own hand to axe, lever, or hay-fork, and toiled with that
cruelly-wasted alert strength.

Fulk always says there never was anyone who taught him so much as
Joel Lea, and he means deeper things than farming.

Sometimes Mr. Lea brought his little boy.  I was vexed at first; but
Alured, who had hardly spoken to a child before, was in ecstasies, as
if a new existence had come upon him; and Trevor Lea was really a
very nice little boy.  He was only half a year the elder; and they
were so much alike that strangers did not know them apart, dressed
alike, as they were; or they were taken for twins, and it made people
laugh to find they were uncle and nephew.

And I must allow the nephew was the best behaved, though it made me
savage to hear Fulk say so.  But our Ally's was not real naughtiness-
-only the consequence of our not being able to keep up discipline,
while we lived in dread  of that seventh year that might rob us of
our darling--always sweet and loving.




CHAPTER V.  SPINNEY LAWN.



A change or two began to creep into our life.  One afternoon, as
Jaquetta, in her pretty pink gingham and white apron, with her black
hair in the Grecian coil we used to wear when our heads were allowed
to be of their own proper size, was gathering crimson apples from the
quarrendon tree close to the river, a voice came over the water--

"Oh, my good girl, if you would but stand so a minute, and allow me
to sketch you!"

Jaquetta started round and laughed.  No doubt she was looking like an
Arcadian; but I--as from under the trees I saw two gentlemen on the
other side of the little stream, and jumped up to come to her
defence--I must have looked more like a displeased if not draggle-
tailed duchess, for there was an immediate disconcerted begging of
our pardons, and a hasty departure.

Jaquetta made a very funny account of my spring forward in awful
dignity, so horribly affronted at her being called a good girl! and
she made Fulk laugh heartily.  The gloom did seem to be lightening on
him now.

Walking tourists, we supposed, though one we thought was a clergyman;
and on Sunday we saw him in the desk and the draughtsman in the
parsonage pew; and we discovered that these were the proposed new
curate, Mr. Cradock, and his younger brother.  Our rector was a canon
who had bad health and never came near us, and the poor old curate
was past work, and, indeed, died a week or two after he had given up.

I saw that younger brother colour up to the roots of his bright hair
as Jaquetta walked up the aisle, in her drawn black silk bonnet with
the pink lining (made by herself); and I think she coloured too, for
she was rosier than usual when we faced round in the corners of our
pew.

We saw no more of them for a month, and a dainty, bridal-looking
little lady appeared in the parsonage seat, with white ribbons in her
straw bonnet, and modest little orange flowers in the frill round her
pleasant face.

Mrs. Cradock she was, we heard; and not only Miss Prior, but Fulk,
wanted us to call on her.

"What's the use?" said I.  "Farmers' families are not on visiting
terms with the ladies of the parsonage."

Poor Jaquey uttered an "Oh dear!" but she and Fulk knew I was past
moving in that mood.

However, one morning in the next week, in walked Fulk into the
keeping-room, and the clergyman with him, and found Jaquey and me
standing at the long table under the window, peeling and cutting up
apples for apple-cheese.

"Mr. Cradock, my sister," he said, just in the old tone when he
brought a friend into our St. James's-street drawing-room; and he
hardly gave time for the shaking of hands before he had returned to
the discussion about the change of ministry, just with the voice and
animation I had not seen for two whole years.

We went on with our apples.  For one thing, we were not wanted; for
another, there was no fire in the little parlour, and the gentlemen
both seemed to be enjoying the bright one that was burning on the
hearth.

The only difficulty was that dinner time began to approach.  The men
could not be kept waiting; and I heard Alured awake from his sleep,
pattering about and shouting; and as we began to gather up our apples
one of the maids peeped in with a table-cloth over her arm.

Mr. Cradock saw, though Fulk did not, and said his wife would expect
him; and then he looked most pleasantly to  me, and said he was not
at all wanted at home, while his wife was luxuriating in a settlement
of furniture; but this was, he was assured, the last day of
confusion, and to-morrow she would be quite ready for all who would
be so good as to call on her.

I could only say I would do myself the pleasure; and then he still
waited a moment to say that his brother Arthur could not recover from
his dismay at his greeting to Miss Torwood.

"But," he said, "the boy's head was quite turned by the beauty of the
country.  He had been raving all day about the new poet, Alfred
Tennyson, and I believe he thought he had walked into lotus-land."

"Nearer the dragon of the Hesperides, perhaps," said Fulk, laughing.
"Is he with you now?"

"No; he has gone back to Oxford.  He is in his second year; and
whether he takes to medicine or to art is to be settled by common-
sense or genius."

"Oh, but if he has genius?" began Jaquetta eagerly.

"That's the question," said Mr. Cradock, laughing.  "But I am
hindering you shamefully," and with that he took his leave, having
quite demolished our barriers.

And his wife was of the same nature--simple, blithe, and bonny--ready
to make friends in a moment; and though she must have known all about
us, never seeming to remember anything but that we were her nearest
lady neighbours.

Jaquetta, whose young friendships had been broken short off, because
the poor girls really did not know how to correspond with her under
present circumstances, took to Mrs. Cradock with eager enthusiasm,
and tripped across the park to her two or three times a week, and
became delightedly interested in all her doings, parochial or
otherwise.

Dear Jaquey's happy nature had always been content; but when I saw
how exceedingly she enjoyed the variety, liveliness, and occupations
brought by the Cradocks, I felt that it had been scarcely kind to
seclude her to gratify my own sole pride; but then there had been
nobody like the Cradocks--to drop or be dropped.

The refreshment to Fulk was even greater.  The having a man to
converse with, and break his mind against, one who would argue, and
who really cared for the true principles of politics, made an immense
difference to him.  When after tea he said he would walk to the
parsonage to see how the debate had gone, and we knew we should not
see him till half-past ten, we could not but be glad; it must have
been so much pleasanter than playing at chess, listening to our old
music, or reading even the new books they lent us.

He brightened greatly that winter, and I ceased to fear that he was
getting a farmer's slouch.  He looked as stately and beautiful as
ever Lord Torwood had done, and the dejection had gone out of his
face and bearing, when suddenly it returned again; and as Miss Prior
was away from home, I never found out the cause till one day, as I
was shopping at Shinglebay, and was telling the linen draper that Mr.
Torwood would call for the parcel, I saw the lady at the other
counter start and turn round, as if at a sudden shock.

Then I saw the white doe eyes, full of the old pleading expression,
and the lips quivering wistfully, but I only said to myself, "The old
arts!  That is what has overthrown Fulk again;" and away I went with
a rigid bow, and said nothing.

There was no exchange of calls.  That was not my fault, for we could
not have begun; and we heard that Mrs. Deerhurst said, "The Torwoods
had shown very good taste in retiring from all society, poor things.
Only it was a great mistake to remain in the neighbourhood--so
awkward for everybody!"

Mrs. Cradock was much struck with Emily's sweet looks; but I believe
that Jaquetta told her all about it, and we never met the Deerhursts
there.

In fact they were not intimate, for there must have been a repulsion
between Mrs. Deerhurst and such a woman as Mary Cradock.

The Deerhursts owned a villa on the outskirts of Shinglebay; indeed,
I believe it was the difficulty in letting it that had unwillingly
forced Mrs. Deerhurst home, after having married her second daughter,
but not Emily.  She was only a mile and a half from Spinney Lawn, and
speedily became familiar there, being as entirely Hester's counsellor
in etiquette as was Perrault on business.  People saw a marked
improvement in elegance from the time she became adviser.

That next winter poor Joel Lea died.  I suppose it was merely the
dulness and want of exercise that killed him, for he had lost flesh
and grown languid in manner for months before a low fever set in, and
he had no power to struggle with it.

He had been ill a long time, when he sent a message to beg Mr.
Torwood to come and see him.  Jaquetta and I persuaded ourselves that
he had discovered that Perrault had suborned witnesses, or done
something that would falsify the whole trial.

Jaquetta said she should be very glad for Fulk, and if it happened
now little Alured would never feel it; but for her own part, she
should hate to go back to be my lady again.  She had never known
before what happiness was.

I could not help laughing.  Nobody had ever detected anything amiss
with Lady Jaquetta Trevor's spirits, but that they were too high at
times.

"Of course I don't mean that I was miserable!" she said; "but there's
something now that does make everything so delicious."

"Could you not take that something to the park?" I asked, laughing.

"I don't know!  It would not be so bad if I could run in and out at
the parsonage as I do now."

And as I smiled, it smote me as I recollected that Arthur Cradock was
always at the parsonage in the vacations.  Jaquetta had been sketched
many a time as nymph of the orchard, and many a nymph besides.  And
if he was yielding to his brother's wisdom in making medicine his
study and art his pleasure, was not our unconscious maiden the sugar
that sweetened the cup of prudence?  Might not elevation be as sore a
trial to her as depression had been to us?

However, our troubling ourselves was all nonsense.  Good Joel Lea
would never have connived at any evil doings.  All he had wanted of
Fulk was to be certain of his forgiveness for the injury he had
suffered through his wife, and to entreat him to keep a watch over
her and the boy.

"You are her brother, when all is come and gone," he said; "and I do
not trust that Perrault.  If ever he fails her, or turns against her,
you'll stand her friend, and look to the boy?"

Fulk heartily promised, and Joel further begged him to write to her
eldest brother, Francis Dayman (who was prospering immensely in the
timber trade), and let him know the state of things--though he had
been so angered at Hester's sacrifice of his mother's good name and
his own birth, that he had broken with her entirely.

"But if anyone can get her out of Perrault's hands, it is Francis,"
poor Joel said; and he went on to talk of his poor boy, about whom he
was very anxious, having no trust in any of Hester's intimates, and
begging Fulk to throw a good word to him now and then.

"He thinks much of you," he said.  "I heard him tell Miss Deerhurst
that it was no use for anyone to try to be such an out-and-out
gentleman as his uncle, for they couldn't do it, and he had rather be
like you than anyone else.  I don't care for gentlemen, and all that
foolery, as you know.  I wish I could leave him to my old mate, Eli
Potter; but you are true and honest, Fulk Torwood, and I think not so
far from the kingdom--"

Then he asked Fulk to read a chapter to him.  No one else would do
so, except little Trevor, when now and then left alone with him; but
Hester would not believe him seriously ill, and thought the Bible
wearied him and made him low spirited; and as to his friend the
Dissenter, she would never admit him.

Fulk was so indignant that he wanted to drive to Shinglebay and fetch
Mr. Ball, but Lea thanked him and half smiled at his superstition of
thinking that a minister was needed to speed his soul; but he was
pleased that Fulk came to him on each of the four or five remaining
days of his life, and read to him whatever he wished.

He sank suddenly at last, while Hester was at church on Sunday
morning, and died when alone with Fulk.

Somehow the intense reality of that man and the true comfort his
faith was to him made an immense impression on my brother, and
seemed, as it were, to give the communication between his religious
belief and his feelings, which had somehow not been in force before.
He thought and borrowed books from Mr. Cradock, and there came a
deepening and softening over him, which one saw in many ways, that
made him dearer than ever.  He looked more at peace, even though one
felt that each passing sight of Emily was a sting.

Hester was dreadfully stricken down at first, and her anguish of
lamentation and self-reproach was terrible to witness; but she would
not hear of Fulk's fetching either of us--indeed, I fancy that was
the fault of my dry, cold looks--nor would she allow him to do
anything for her.

Mrs. Deerhurst came to be with her, and Perrault managed everything.

They had a magnificent funeral--much grander than my father's--and
laid him in the family vault.

Perrault took the opportunity of insulting Fulk by pairing him with
old Hall, the ex-agent; but Hall found it out in time, and refused to
go, and when the moment came everybody fell back, and Fulk found
himself close to poor little Trevor, who tried to get his hand out of
Perrault's and cling to him; but Perrault held him tight till, at the
moment when they moved to the mouth of the vault and were to go down
the steps, terror completely seized the poor child, and he began to
shriek so fearfully that Fulk had to snatch him up and carry him out
of the church, trembling from head to foot.

It was very cruel to send a sensitive child of six years old in that
way; but Hester was too much exhausted with her violent grief to go
herself, and, devoted mother as she was in all else, she never
perceived that poor child's instinctive shrinking from Perrault.

We tried to be kind to her, and hoped she would soften towards us;
but she did not.  I could see her eyes glitter with their keen,
searching glance under her crape veil, as if she were measuring
Alured all over when the child walked into church with me; and,
indeed, when he went to the Zoological Gardens some time later, and
saw the cobra di capello, he said--

"Ursa, why does that snake look at me just like Lady Hester?"

There must have been fascination in the eager mystery of the gaze,
for, strangely enough, he was not afraid of her.  She always made
much of him if he came in her way, and he was so fond of Trevor Lea
that nothing made him so eager or happy as the thought of seeing him.

The one idea that her boy was ousted by Alured, and the longing to
see him the heir, seemed to drive out everything else from Hester--
almost feeling for her husband.

Fulk had written to Francis Dayman, and he intended to come and see
after his sister as soon as he could leave his business; but this
rather precipitated matters.  Hester was persuaded that Alured could
not live through that eighth year of his life at the utmost, and
Perrault somehow persuaded her, that only as her husband could he
protect her interests and Trevor's, though what machinations she
could have expected from us, I cannot guess; or how, in the case of a
minor, we could have interfered with her rights.  But the man had
gained such an ascendancy over her, that she did not even perceive
that the connection was not good for that great object of hers, her
son's position in society.  In fact, he persuaded her that he was of
a noble old French family, and ought to be a count.  How we laughed
when we heard of it!  She did preserve wisdom enough to insist upon
having her fortune conveyed to trustees for her son, so that Perrault
could only touch the income, and not the principal; and as she told
everyone that he had been determined upon this being done, I suppose
he saw that any demur would excite her suspicion.

They went to London, and were married there, while we were still
scouting poor Miss Prior's rumours.  We were very sorry when we
thought of poor Joel's charge; and, besides, "the count" had an
uncomfortable slippery look about him.  I can't describe it
otherwise.  He was a slim, trim, well-dressed man, only given to
elaborate jewellery and waistcoats, with polished black hair and
boots, and keen French-looking eyes, well-mannered, and so versatile
and polite, that he soon overcame people's prejudices; and he was
thought to make a much better master of the house than poor Joel had
ever done.




CHAPTER VI.  THE WHITE DOE'S WARNING.



Here was Alured's eighth birthday, and he had never been ill at all,
but was as fine-looking healthy a boy as could be seen.

We took him to London, and showed him to Dr. Hart, and he said that
the old tendency was entirely outgrown, and that Lord Trevorsham was
as likely to live and thrive as any child of his age in England.

It really seemed the beginning of a new life, not to have that
dreadful fear hanging over us any longer!  We felt settled, that was
one thing; not as if we should do as Bertram expected, have to come
off to New Zealand.

The farm had just began to pay.  Fulk's sales of cattle had been, for
the first time, more than enough to clear his rent.  He had a great
ox in the Smithfield Cattle Show, and met our Lupton uncles there not
as an unsuccessful man.

And I?  I had a dim feeling that Alured would soon cease to need me,
and Jaquetta would not be claimed for a long time; and if--

But in the midst of that I saw a haggard face driving in the park by
the side of a little, over-dressed, faded woman.

And Aunt Amelia told me how (in the rebound from my harshness, no
doubt) Mr. Decies had, as it were, dropped into the hands of a weak,
extravagant girl, who had long been using all the intellect she had
to attract him, and now led him a dreary life of perpetual
dissipation.

I don't know how much I had been to blame.  I am sure he was meant
for better things.  Mine could never have been real love for him, and
the refusal could not have been wrong.  It must have been the pride
and harshness that stung him!

I was very sorry for him, though I could not think about it, of
course, still less speak; but that was the beginning of my hating
myself, and I have hated myself more and more ever since I have taken
to write all this down, and seen how hard and foolish I was, how very
much the worst of the three.

Even my care for Alured sprang out of exclusive passion, and so,
though I do think that by Heaven's mercy I had a great share in
cherishing him into strength and health, I had managed him badly,
I had indulged him over much, and was improperly resentful of any
attempt of Jaquetta, or even of Fulk, to interfere with him or
restrain him.

Thus, when the anxiety was over, and he was a strong boy, full of
health and activity, his will was entirely unrestrained, he had no
notion of minding any of us, still less of learning.  Trevor Lea
could read, write, talk French, say a few Latin declensions, when
Alured could not read a word of three letters, and would not try to
learn.

Oh! the antics he played when I tried to teach him!  Then Fulk tried,
and he was tame for three days, but then came idleness, wilfulness,
anger, punishment, but he laughed to scorn all that we could find in
our hearts to do to him.

As to getting other help we were ashamed till he should be a little
less shamefully backward.  The Cradocks offered to teach him, but
then, unless he was elaborately put on honour, he played truant.

He had plenty of honour, plenty of affection, but not the smallest
conscience as to obedience; and Fulk would not have the other two
motives worked too hard, saying the one might break, the other give
way.

We had not taught obedience, so we had to take the consequences, and
we were the less able to enforce it that he had come to a knowledge
of our mutual relations much sooner than we intended, and in the
worst manner possible.

Of course he knew himself to be Lord Trevorsham, and owner of the
property; but one day, when Fulk found him galloping his pony in the
field laid up for hay, and ordered him out, he retorted that "You
ain't my proper brother, and you haven't any rights over me!  It is
my field; and I shall do as I like."

Fulk got hold of the pony's bridle, and took Alured by the shoulder
without one word, then took him into the little study, and had it out
with him.

It was Hester who had told him.  He had been at Spinney Lawn with
Trevor all one afternoon, when we had thought him out with old
Sisson.  He had told no falsehood indeed, but Hester and her husband
had made him understand, so far as such a child could do, that there
was some disgrace connected with us; that Fulk had once been in his
place, and only wanted to get it back, and now had it all his own way
with his young lordship's property, and that he owed us neither duty
nor affection, only to his true relative, Lady Hester Perrault.

The dear boy had maintained stoutly that he did love Ursula and
Jacquey, and that Hester wasn't half so nice, and that he had rather
they bullied him than that she coaxed him!  But there was the poison
sown--to rankle and grow and burst out when he was opposed.  He had
full faith and trust in Fulk, and accepted his history, owning,
indeed, from a boy, that he had been a horrid little wretch for
saying what he did, and asking whether it had not been a great bore;
indeed, he behaved all the better instead of the worse for some
little time, dear fellow.

But he was too big and strong to tie to one's apron-string, and his
greatest pleasure was in being with Trevor.  I think Trevor's own
influence never did any harm.  Poor Joel Lea had trained him well,
and he was a conscientious, good boy, who often hindered Alured from
insubordination; but the attraction to Spinney Lawn was a mischievous
thing--for there was no doubt that the heads of the family would set
him against us if they could.

So Fulk thought it wiser to send him to school, since he was learning
nothing properly at home, and only getting more disobedient and
unruly.

Immediately Trevor Lea was sent to the same school, to the boys'
great delight.  They cared little that Trevor was placed nearly at
the top and Trevorsham at the bottom of the little preparatory
school.  They held together just as much, and Alured came home
wonderfully improved and delightfully good, but more than ever
inseparable from Trevor.

In the meantime Francis Dayman had come to pay his sister a visit.
He had made some fortunate speculations, and had come on to be a
merchant of considerable wealth and weight in the Hudson's Bay
Company.

A handsome man of a good deal of strength and force he seemed to be,
and Perrault had certainly been wise in securing his prize before
Hester had such a guardian.

He was an open, straight-forward man, with a fresh breath of the
forest about him; successful beyond all his hopes, and full of
activity.  He took to Fulk, and seemed to have a strong fellow-
feeling for us.

But little had Fulk expected to be made the confidant of his vehement
admiration for Emily Deerhurst.  The gentle lady-like girl impressed
the backwoodsman in a wondrous manner.  It seemed to him, as if his
wealth would have real value, if he could pour it all out on her.

And her mother encouraged him.  Emily was six years older than when
she had cast off Fulk, and there was a pale changed look about her;
and the rich Canadian, who could buy a baronetcy, and do anything she
asked, tempted Mrs. Deerhurst.

Though, as Fulk said bitterly, if the stain on his birth was all the
cause of the utter withdrawal, was it not the same with Francis
Dayman?  Only in his case it was gilded!

Dayman knew nothing of this former affair.  The world was forgetting
it, and if Hester knew it, she kept it from his knowledge, so he used
to consult Fulk as to what was to be done to please an English lady,
and whether he was too rough for her; and Fulk stood it all.  He even
knew when the young lady herself was brought forward--and refused,
gently, sadly, courteously, but unmistakably; and then, when driven
hard by the eager wooing, owned to an old attachment, that never
would permit her to marry!

What a light there was in Fulk's eyes when he whispered that into my
ears!  And yet he had kept his counsel, even though Mr. Dayman told
him that the mother declared it to be a foolish romantic affair of
very early girlhood, that no doubt his perseverance would overthrow.

"And her persecution!" muttered poor Fulk.  But he did enjoy the
confidences in a bitter-sweet fashion.  It was justifiable to be a
dog in the manger under the circumstances.

Mr. Dayman went to London, and Hester was negotiating about a house
where Mrs. Deerhurst and her daughters were to stay with her for a
few weeks.  I fancy Mrs. Deerhurst thought that the chance of seeing
Farmer Torwood ride by to market had a bad effect.  It was the Easter
holidays, and both boys were at home; always trying to be together,
and we not finding it easy to keep Alured from Spinney Lawn, without
such flat refusals as would have given his sister legitimate cause of
complaint and offence.

One beautiful spring afternoon, when Alured, to my vexation and vague
uneasiness, had gone over there, I was sowing annuals in the garden
and watching for him at the same time, when, to my surprise, I saw,
coming over the fields from the park, a lady with a quick, timid, yet
wearied step.  Had she lost her way, I thought?  There was something
of the tame fawn in her movement; and then I remembered the white
doe.  Yes! it was Emily!

The one haunting anxiety of my life broke out-- "You haven't come to
say there's anything amiss with my boy?" I cried out.

"No; oh no!  I think he is safe now; but I wanted to tell you, I
think you ought to be warned."

She was trembling so much that I wanted to bring her in and make her
rest; but she would only sit down on the step of the stile, and there
she whispered it, in this way.

"You know there's a dreadful scarlet fever at old Brown's."

"The old man that sells curiosities?  No, I did not know it; I'll
keep Trevorsham away," I said, wondering she had come all this way;
and then asking in a fright, "Surely he has not been there?"

"No; I met him on the road with Lady Hester Perrault, and I told
them.  I walked back to Spinney Lawn with them.  But," as I began to
thank her, and her voice went lower still, "but--oh, Ursula, Lady
Hester knew it!"

"Knew it!"

"Yes, knew it quite well."

"She was doing it on purpose!"

"Oh," Emily hid her face in her hands, "I pray God to forgive me if
I am doing a very cruel wicked wrong; but I can't help thinking it.
I had told her only yesterday how bad the fever was in that street.
She said she had forgotten it, and thanked me; but she had not her
own boy, Trevor, with her.

I was too much frozen with the horror of the thing to speak at first,
and perhaps Emily thought I did not quite believe her, for she said,
under her breath, "And I've heard her talk--talk to mamma--about her
being so certain that Lord Trevorsham could not live, even when he
was past seven years old.  They always have said that the first
illness would go to his head and carry him off.  And when people do
wish things very much--" And then she grew frightened at herself, and
began blaming herself for the horrible fancy, but saying it haunted
her every time she saw Lord Trevorsham in Lady Hester's sight.  That
old ballad, "The wee grovelling doo," would come into her head, and
she had felt as if any harm happened to the child it would be her
fault for not having spoken a word of warning, and this had
determined her.

By this time I had taken it in, and then the first thing I did was to
spring up and ask how she could leave the boy still in the woman's
power, to which she answered that she had walked them back to Spinney
Lawn--a whole mile--and that Lady Hester could not set forth again,
now that Alured had heard the conversation.

He had been bent on going to buy a tame sea-gull there, as a birthday
present for Trevor; and Emily had lured him off from that, by a
promise of getting one from an old fisherman whom she knew.  So there
was not much fear of his running back into the danger, though I
should not have a happy moment till he was in my sight again.

Then Emily sprang up, saying, she must go.  She had walked four
miles, and she must get back as fast as she could.  Most likely mamma
would think her at Spinney Lawn.

But what must not it have cost that timid thing to venture here with
her warning!

It gave me a double sense of the reality of my boy's, peril, that she
had been excited to it, and she would not hear of coming in to rest;
and when I entreated her to wait till I could get the gig to drive
her part of the way, she held me fast, and insisted, with all the
terror of womanly shamefacedness, that, "he--that Tor--that Mr.
Torwood--should not know."  And she sprang up to go home instantly,
before he could guess.

"Oh, Emily, that is too bad, when nothing would make him so glad."

"Oh! no, no! he has been used too ill; he can't care for me now, and
as if I should--"

I don't think poor Emily uttered anything half so coherent as this,
at any rate I understood that she disclaimed the least possibility of
his affection continuing, and felt it an outrage on herself to be
where she could even suppose herself to have voluntarily put herself
in his way.

I thought there was nothing for it but to let her start, hurry after
her with some vehicle, and then call and bring home my boy; but in
the midst of my perplexity and her struggle with her tears, who
should appear on the scene but Fulk himself, driving home the spring
cart wherein, everybody being busy, he had conveyed a pig to a new
home.

I don't know how it was all done or said.  My first notion was that
he should be warned of our dear boy's danger, and rescue him before
anything else.  I could not get in
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